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People Don’t Deserve Second Chances

Posted in Uncategorized by feelingdead on October 12, 2009

Guess what!!!? I just thought of another one of those stupid things people say (another myth). “People deserve second chances.” Some people don’t even get a first chance. Look at all the people that are born with disabilities or the kids that are born in Darfur or wherever. Did these people ever get a chance?? Fuck you if you think there is a God, and fuck you if you think God loves you!! If so many people are not given a first chance, what makes you think you are so especial to deserve a second chance??

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Staying Positive

Posted in Uncategorized by feelingdead on September 25, 2009

OK, so this is my second post of the night, and hopefully you feel a bit better about yourself after reading the kindda shitty life that I live.

I don’t think my life is any different from that of a prisoner. I eat, workout, and sleep. Satisfying the most basic human needs, “living” an empty “life.”

Some fags go around saying shit like, oh stay positive, something might happen… There is an especial someone out there for everyone… God created us equally… Life isn’t fair, you have to take what’s yours… suicide is the loser’s way out… If you smile at the world, the world smiles back at you…    FUCK OFF with this bullshit. I’m slowly but surely realizing that life is a big fucking joke and I am not special…YOU ARE NOT SPECIAL!! I’m starting to lose my hair, something that I could never imagine 5 years ago and haha if I can’t meet any bitches now, good luck to me when I’m bald. How fucking hilarious this must be!! No, it is not a joke, it’s my life!!

If we assume that equality is equivalent to fairness in a sense that it’s unfair for us to be un-equal then there is a contradiction in these two statements: 1) Life isn’t fair. 2) God created us all equal.

If life isn’t fair, then we are not equal. hoopydoo, don’t need to be a rocket scientist to figure this one out. There is no god and if there is one, he doesn’t give a shit about us. He set a bunch of rules that he wants followed, universal laws of gravity and shit like that.

In 2006, suicide was the third leading cause of death for young people ages 15 to 24.1 Of every 100,000 young people in each age group, the following number died by suicide:1

  • Children ages 10 to 14 — 1.3 per 100,000
  • Adolescents ages 15 to 19 — 8.2 per 100,000
  • Young adults ages 20 to 24 — 12.5 per 100,000


If so many young people (mostly male) are killing themselves in our society and knowing that the world’s male population is not equal to the world’s female population, then there really isn’t someone out there for everyone. So fuck you if you are one of those cock suckers that just wants to say a bunch of pretty words without actually understanding its real meaning.

And like I said, if I do anything nice for the whores like open the door for them, smile or anything, they think I’m hitting on them and wanna crawl up their butts. So, the world doesn’t really smile at you either.

Suicide is the losers way out…. hmm, is it? really? If they are brave enough to end their life and get this shit over with, I applaud them. Good for them, lucky them. I feel for them, and I am happy that they have reached the end of their pain. I would have been dead long time ago if it wasn’t because of my great love for my parents. They have given me everything and if there is one thing in this life that I value, it’s their presence in my “life.” Since I’m like a loyal dog that takes the pain but doesn’t back stab, I can never commit suicide, but I envy the people that do.